its mushroom time and regret time!  / Carol Perry (mother)
Justin, It is now mushroom time and I can hardly bring myself to go! But I have forced myself twice to go out and look in our favorite patches that we all shared. How we all laughed while we hunted for our prize mushrooms! All I found first was a white golf ball you had hit from the yard while you and John were practicing your perfect shots no doubt! The next day I found a yellow golf ball in the mud at the end of the driveway. I went into the house and cried like a baby. No one can know this grief unless they have been there and though I know you did probably volunteer for your earthly assignment before coming to earth, and probably did know you were not here for long. I remember how you seemed so anxious for me to buy your new couch/bed for your room and we did have it all picked out, I was just waiting to get caught up on my bills and you were helping so much- I just thought I had more time and though you only wanted me to hurry and buy it because you knew your time was growing close and you knew I would feel this guilt and pain for not getting it bought and you were so loving to me and did not want me to feel this guilt. I am sorry Justin that I acted so slow but I am still buying it for your room and we will start using your room for our family room and sit on the couch you and I picked out together and we will always remember you and how you made us all laugh! A few nights ago I awoke laughing aloud and I had just felt you come in and poke me in the side like you always used to do to watch me jump and I knew you had been there with me in the still and quiet of the night . Thank you Jesus for allowing his spirit to come to me and I pray God will allow me to see you one more time. I will always feel your presence like I do dad Dean’s. And that gives me strength to go on and perseveres thru this whole life. I love you son...MOM Close

Justin / Misty Pearson (Cousin)
Knowing you is a pleasantry to us who see your personality.  Thank you    for being kind to us without hindrance to us of any sort.  We will miss you, you left so quickly, it seemed impossible to me, and yet God took you.  God may come for all of us soon, or maybe another one of us.  Your life and death have made that so true.  I will see you again and that is neat to know.  What is it that you know now in your completeness, is it what you knew before God sent you?  Maybe it is more.  Did you know that you could make this impression on our lives?  Mercifull, peacemaker, kind brother, gentle boy, good friend, soft spirit, and so much love to us who love you.  My impression of you is my reason for mothering my children the way that I do.  And in your death I realize that I have made the right choice in doing so.  Remembering your life is to see so much of what matters, family, being tender hearted, and gentle.  Maybe you told God before you arrived on this earth you could make this impression on me, or on another being, maybe your parents needed you, to see you, to love you, ....did someone also need to loose you?  Justin it never seemed real, death, it did not seem real, now it does, you are with him, it must be beyond anything here on earth, you are in your new body.  You didn't have to be a super star to make an impression on my life.  You are missed but I am happy you are with God, I'm sure you wouldn't come back.  Until I see you again I hope God will say hello and pass on this brief message from me to you.

Love from your cousin and family,
Misty, Mark, Tenton, Cody and Peter Close

nine months of waiting for you  / Carol Perry (mother)
I only had one goal in life and that was to be come a mom and be a good one. After high school your dad and I had been married for 3 years and we had moved back to Louisville, Illinois and lived in our trailer. That winter it was so cold and snowy early and our pipes had frozen and busted (young kids!)And so we moved into your grandma and grandpa Wiley's house. And there I went to Dr. Cycholl to find our why I the doctors in St. Louis had said that I would not be able to have children- I had suffered such a depression over this. While all my H.S. friends said I should have a goal for my life and I did but they thought I should want to go to college or make lots of money but I just wanted a child! After Dr. Cycholl examined me he said I could have as many babies as I wanted! I was overjoyed! 2 months later I started feeling sick early in mornings but by noon it would pass. The dr. confirmed that indeed I was pregnant! We were so happy when that hot June summer I went into labor early in the day. We kept going to the hospital and they would send us home wait. About 2:00 pm they kept me and at 6 pm you were born! Close

In loving memery of Justin Wiley  / Charlene Eidson (best freinds mom)
   Here is a few things that I will always remember about Justin. The friendship that you and John shared all during high school and beyond.  The joy Larry had discussing favorite baseball team, which is the ST.LOUIS CARDINALS, and favorite nascar driver , Jeff Gordon with Justin. The many conversatoins I listend too between Justin,John, and David about bowling, golf, and fishing.  It was my joy to watch Justin mature from a teenager into a gracoius young man.  As I watch John experience the joys of his life, I will always see a little of Justin in everything that John does. I will always remember you.
                                     LOVE
                       Charlene Anspach-Eidson
            The mother of John and David Anspach Close

To the family of justin wiley / John Anspach (best friend)

Well what can I say about Justin that has not been said already. Not a hole lot. A best friend would do anything for you, no matter what the cost too him. A young man who would be their if you needed him. From a friend that would sit down and play video games, go bowling with, golf with, or just be the another brother too me. I know that he is watching over all of us now. I miss the times we had together, but i know we will cross paths agian,  It will be like nothin has ever changed. My sympathy and lots of love, go out to all of his friends and family.

                                                        Your best friend
                                                         John Anspach

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Thinking of you / Debbie Tolladay
My heart is breaking for what you're going through... I wish there was something I could say or do to help ease the pain that's weighing down on you.  I just wanted to let you know how very sorry I am and let you know you are in my thoughts and prayers.  Close

our first easter / Carol Perry (mother)
Son, today 4-27-05 was our first Easter without you on earth to help celebrate the resurrection of our Saviour! We had always held this day dear because of what it stood for. I have visited your grave today, i know you are not there but with our Lord! I still wept for i miss you so much and nikki and natasha and us did not get together today but we did friday and tonite natasha is bringing your favorite person out to spend the night, our little bright eyed ashley! how she misses you Monkey jay. She came into your room yesterday while i was in there and she just stood and looked everywhere and then looked at me and asked "where is monkey jay, Nana? where is he" i cried and i told her again how you went ot heaven to be like the angels. she agreed and somehow i think she understood! we all love you son and miss you so much! Close

My big brother / Nikki Totsch (Sister)
You were always my protective big brother and i love you and miss you. I look forward to the day i will see you again and i know your happier than you ever were on earth. i love you Close

Free / Natasha Miller (Sister)
 I know you had to go away
 it was your time to leave
 but I didn't take the time to realize
 that meant leaving me. 
 You wasn't afraid of dying
 for you knew what lay in store
 in the blinking of an eye
 or the closing of a door.
 You shared with us a journey
 that only you could see
 you tried to show us God's way
 and now I know that it was just meant to be.
 Life had you so restricted
 and now your spirit is free
 to go explore heaven for all eternity. 

 Justin,
 I never realized how important you was to me until now. You was the one that I talked to here lately when everything was going wrong, you were always supportive. I wished i had spent more time with you. We never did get to go shopping like we'd planned. Brianna and I will always love and miss you! I will never let her forget how important she was to you and how much time you two spent together watching baseball and reading books and jumping on the bed singing. I can't wait till i get to go home and see you again and i pray that it won't be long! Close

My Tribute to Justin / Debbie Norman (Aunt)

Four weeks ago you left us
And went to your new home
It seemed that night would never end
Such sorrow that you were gone
Though the pain will never leave us
And tears still suddenly flow
We know you're in a better place
It's us we cry for here below
Because we'll always miss you
But it helps so much to know
The place that you are living now
Is where we all want to go. Close